It's hard to get a word in and it's overwhelming, because yes some of this is undeniably his fault, but at the same time it feels like the pirate is grabbing at any wild assumption he can. Is this really how Balthier thinks Reyes sees him? Has he been so poor at communication that underneath the warm moments and flirty teasing he thought Reyes thought so little of him?
The longer this goes on they move slightly further apart and it's like he's losing him, like he will lose him and it frightens him. After Ryder... maybe that was the problem, the things he did now with Balthier and their relationship that was shooting them in the foot, because he didn't want a repeat of that. Some how it had made him say more but less at the same time.]
Balthier.
[It's blurted out, brows pinched tight and eyes shifting to try and get him to look at him. Please just look at him. They're still sitting close enough to be intimate and yet it feels like there's miles between them and his hand reach out to hold the pirate's arms. Just to make sure he's still there and won't disappear in a blink of an eye.
Where does he even start?]
Is that... how you think I see you? That you disappoint me?
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Date: 2022-06-27 11:49 pm (UTC)It's hard to get a word in and it's overwhelming, because yes some of this is undeniably his fault, but at the same time it feels like the pirate is grabbing at any wild assumption he can. Is this really how Balthier thinks Reyes sees him? Has he been so poor at communication that underneath the warm moments and flirty teasing he thought Reyes thought so little of him?
The longer this goes on they move slightly further apart and it's like he's losing him, like he will lose him and it frightens him. After Ryder... maybe that was the problem, the things he did now with Balthier and their relationship that was shooting them in the foot, because he didn't want a repeat of that. Some how it had made him say more but less at the same time.]
Balthier.
[It's blurted out, brows pinched tight and eyes shifting to try and get him to look at him. Please just look at him. They're still sitting close enough to be intimate and yet it feels like there's miles between them and his hand reach out to hold the pirate's arms. Just to make sure he's still there and won't disappear in a blink of an eye.
Where does he even start?]
Is that... how you think I see you? That you disappoint me?