He’s so grateful for her keeping their faces together and the calming hand at the back of his head. The kiss is appreciated too, something they’ve used sparingly and only in kindness.
He doesn’t mean to, but he tenses as her hand guides his. All of this feels wrong. Neither of them has real choice and that makes him want to buck and flee. Even her touch on his body leaves him torn, comforted and repulsed all at once.
Her command comes, gentle and helpful, but something feels strange. His feelings don’t change but he finds himself palming her cloth-covered entrance with more directness. Perhaps it’s just easier to follow directions.
There’s no arousal though, nor for him. And he can’t think about that because he will panic. What happens if he can’t get off?
“Mistress, your gentleness is appreciated,” he does manage to murmur to her. “If I can make you feel good, I am happy to.” And that at least is true.
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Date: 2022-11-07 03:44 am (UTC)He doesn’t mean to, but he tenses as her hand guides his. All of this feels wrong. Neither of them has real choice and that makes him want to buck and flee. Even her touch on his body leaves him torn, comforted and repulsed all at once.
Her command comes, gentle and helpful, but something feels strange. His feelings don’t change but he finds himself palming her cloth-covered entrance with more directness. Perhaps it’s just easier to follow directions.
There’s no arousal though, nor for him. And he can’t think about that because he will panic. What happens if he can’t get off?
“Mistress, your gentleness is appreciated,” he does manage to murmur to her. “If I can make you feel good, I am happy to.” And that at least is true.